Women Don’t Have Magical Powers of Mind Control

Rant In: The skirt last night… OK honestly, I believe Vanity when she says she can’t fell that her skirt has ridden up. There’s a lot going on, she is wearing two pairs of tights, and since a skirt check wasn’t programed into her show some times it does whatever. Not saying she gets a free pass for not having a skirt check in there. I mean if I’m wearing a short tight skirt I check it constantly. My head and body are aware of each other. But give the woman a break! I’m sure, now that y’all’ve toughly embarrassed her, the skirt check is in now. You could have been a little more tactful about it.

As to modesty at large, because thinking of short skirts reminds me of all the Galmasaours Rexes at the clubs, it’s pathetic to be skanky but it’s repressive to be overly modest. Don’t think you can avoid sleazy men by hiding. They love to find you. In fact they take it as a sign that you’re insecure and therefore ruled by a victim mentality. That’s why “nice” girls get raped.

Dudes have a responsibility to control their thoughts and actions too. Don’t blame women for your failure. Because when it comes to sexual excesses it doesn’t matter to you what the vessel looks like as long as you get what you want. All I’m saying is don’t blame the vessel for your decision to abuse it. The abuse is your fault she didn’t make you do anything. Surprise! Women don’t have magical powers of mind control, you control your thoughts. Rant out!

Nonconformist Streak

Viking,

You caught me off guard a bit with your persistent desire to know me better. I practice a different philosophy regarding personal information than the people around us. I'm not hiding anything it's just I've come to believe that I will know what I need to know exactly when I need to know it. I don't have to seek out information people tend to tell me things without my solicitation all the time. Therefore I don't feel the need to present organized packets of information about myself. Besides I find myself to be boring and why would I subject you to mundane petty routine things?

If it's really that important to you to know me better there's plenty of information out already that you can read starting with my resume. But to expect me to hand you a story? That I refuse to do. It's my nonconformist streak that forbids it.

Obviously saying, "so, tell me about yourself" will get you no where. So, ask better questions you'll get better answers.

Not Really the one Under Attack

After much thought and being caught without words, though I know what I ought to say, I sit to write this. It’s the only way I can think of to clearly say what I feel losing as little meaning as possible. In my experience when something is written the reader takes time to understand it but when it’s spoken it slips away.

Many times below deck Dark Star has asked me how I stay calm despite the chaos and anger. I have never given her a complete answer because it isn’t one secret thing that can be told in a sentence or it is but it takes forever to explain. Honestly, I don’t handle it. That is my secret. Someone else handles it.

I’m free to let the darts go because I’m not really the one under attack. They are miserable and lash out in a feral manor because they are wounded not because we did or said anything. I can see how hard it is to be immersed in their environment clearly seeing the damage but unable to do anything to stop it.

Harmony is a better place to live.

Acknowledging the limited role we can play in this scene is essential to surviving it. Learning our own faults and humbly asking for forgiveness is the first step toward harmony. Not holding the attacks in but letting them free in acts of kindness and mindfulness are ways we avoid being deeply wounded ourselves. By abdicating the burden to someone else and refusing to be ruled by feelings I no longer live in the hating place. It is Christ in me who is wounded and acts.

You can experience this too but the training is brutal. Life will never be simple but you will come to do and survive more than you thought possible because the burden will not be yours.

The problem I have with Vanity is that I don’t know how to be kind to her. The rest of you are more transparent to me. I know what attentions I need to pay to you. But she is isolated in a mind foreign to me; that I’ve been slow to figure out. Clearly, if this ship is to cruise forever, I must learn what kindness is to her.

It’s occurred to me that Smurfet stopped enjoying work around the time Vanity came. Watching that dynamic, their mutual jealousy, is sickening. That is the worst relationship in the room. My prescription would be for one to shut up and listen and the other to fight for herself. But these are things out of my control.

When the crisis comes I pray that I can speak my mind in love. I want to be the first on the scene. I don’t think Mother Bear understands the conflict in the same light that I do and it would be very different to have me yelling instead of her. We’re sort of used to that.

Sleep well friends I’ll see you on the morrow.

Fortune Cookie

Those of you who were at where I was at tonight will know the context of the cookie. I got a fortune cookie today. Inside was two slips of paper. They both said the same thing. "You have a deep interest in all that is artistic". Um, what? That's like running around and telling people they must like shoes. The vast majority of us would say we are interested in art and would consider this interest deep.

Maybe, I have more than a deep interst in art. What if I have deep interests in all things artistic? Business interests and personal interests and social interest and political, religious, bilogical, recriational, and practical. Fortune cookies are jokes. Invented by enterprising restauranteurs to make us eat bland stale cookies. They hold one power, the power of self dilution. If you see through it it makes you laugh if not you continue in the delusion. It's simple and well crafted.

Never forget this.

Boundry Stone

You shouldn't be so tightly ruled by your emotions. It's not that I don't care it's just I could never care enough to satisfy you. I does the work a disservice to put your own sense of entitlement and wounded pride first. to diffuse your wound you would wound me. Wasting time on a vendetta that in the end ruins more than it can heal. It may shock you to learn that your emotions mean very little to me. I'm not cold hearted but I also know that I'm not responsible for your anxiety. What you find mean in me is seen by everyone else in a different light.

Christian Mystic: Discipline of body.

I started to write this a long time ago. It was interesting to see where I was then.

Christianity is training for spiritual battle. Every Christian should be aware of this. If soldiers are undisciplined winning a battle is very difficult. Though we know our general is superior to our enemy and he will win the war it does not excuse us from cooperating with him. I would hope to not be a casualty through lack of discipline, for that is the danger. Christ will win regardless of my activity but it would be far better for me if I cooperate now and become who he has assigned me to be.

Okay, I know I'm not very disciplined I tend to sit around when I shouldn't or ignore things that should be payed attention to (dirty dishes). But I do realize that I need some sort of discipline in my life. It's part of the maturing process.

The easiest way of going about this is to start with disciplining the body. There is a mind element to all this because everything begins as a thought. So in order to discipline the body some discipline of the mind must exist. Disciplining the body can't occur in a vacuum. I must think to go to the gym.

Another interesting thing about physical discipline is that there is a communal aspect to it. In order for me to succeed in a healthy way I need a community of people, a team if you will, to help me. Because on my own I tend to get lazy and on their own other people have overdone it. Also, I don't know what I'm doing when it comes to exercise. I've never seriously been able to figure out what would be best for me to do.

Why would it be important for a Christian to maintain a well disciplined body? Because in disciplining the body we train our minds to also be disciplined. This will lead to good/right thinking and help us with spiritual discipline which is harder to measure. We were not called to be undisciplined. Paul in his letter to the Corinthians, the first one we have, stated more than once that we ought to be disciplined. "But I discipline my body and keep it under control lest, after preaching to others I myself should be disqualified." (1cor9:27) "But we are judge by the lord, we are disciplined so that we may not be condemned along with the world."(1cor11:32) The former is part of a life metaphor stating that life is like a foot race. I find it very interesting that Paul would mention that he disciplines his body.

I don't know Greek but I wonder if this was a supposition sort of statement or a "I actually do this" sort of thing. Because we know from studies that exercise and diet are important to having a good lifestyle. I don't see how Christians should argue against that.