I'm sure they’re on the edge of their seats waiting to see how
I will explain what happened to them tonight. I don’t feel compelled to do it.
Not in the way they most desire. There was a series of events that, in my mind,
started the Sunday before. It was all par for this course and nothing truly horrific
happened. Only we live with the consequences of others decisions it’s just how
life is.
But if I’m to be completely honest it really started much
earlier than Sunday. It started in an attitude that sprang up early in each of
our lives. I see it clearly because I’m a natural observer. I have lived outside
their norm my entire life. They like me best when they have my attention
because they are selfish. Don’t worry I’m selfish too. The difference is I don’t
use that as an excuse to be lazy I’m disciplined about it.
Now I might confuse them into thinking I’m some wonderful
amazing controlled person. I don’t consider myself to be that. It was a long
ongoing process to get to this point. I had help. It’s hard to explain.
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