I need a cat

I keep saying I should ask for help and then don’t because when I get attention that was 80% of the problem and the excuse to ask for attention seems so silly when I start to explain it. Seriously? I just discovered my deepest problem? I’m a repressed attention whore!

Implication: to seek attention from only one source is foolish because we have limited capacity to attend. But asking for it costs us. But we need it. Ahhh! So there needs to be a reliable source of attention. Family ought to do it. It doesn’t always, so religion, or clubs, or careers, or gangs take over the natural bands.

God, I need a cat!

How does this relate? We adopt animals because they are simple. We attend to them by feeding and they attend to us by asking for food. Not complicated. Why is it complicated for us? I mean we cut deals. You know, give me what I want and I'll give you what you want, maybe. I'll always want more than you can give. I will demand more than you're willing to part with. Since we are both extremely selfish you will do the same to me. Then we will get pissy at each other.

At least that's how it is with women. Mercifully for men they seem to have some magical stress valve that blows steam for less than a second then they're fine. So many times I wish I had that. Maybe that's a myth. Maybe men don't have said valve. How could I know?