Smilax is Angry

According to Jem; Smilax is angry that I'm Jem's ninja this job. Smilax does not metabolize disappointment well. I had a year to get over her shit she hasn't even stopped to realize she's broken. I'm not going to stoop. For our mutual benefit I hope she stays away from me. It saddens me how uncooperative and mean Smilax gets. The way she treats people just ignites my anger. There is no way for me to plan how I will react. The Boss will be very disappointed if I'm not careful with this.

So fare I'm on good terms with Mother Bear and I hope to keep it that way.

Boss, don't let Smilax's mind games get to me. We know what I tried to do for her. I tried to make her a better person. We know how she hurt me. Others know. Everyone knows she's unhinged. Hell, she even knows, but won't do anything about it. Help me look at her and feel nothing. At the very least let me say something on the lines of; "Thank you for making my life miserable for three years. That was fucking brilliant. I hope you have a nice day and if you'll excuse me I have work to do." There's no way to soften it she's already cast me as her nemesis. What did I do to get this? I was too honest. I tried to get through the dilution. Adversary has a strong little fort in that quarter.