Mongrel,
I stand by what I've written. I don't plan on telling you all of this because you would just mangle it. I know you aren't attacking me. It isn't my place to rescue God from you so I'll let him take care of himself.
Still, trust does flow from belief in love. Without love what incentive is there to tell the truth? What you trust you love. If it betrays you wouldn't that devastate you like the loss of a lover? You claim that trust flows from TRUTH. I don't understand you. What the fuck is this TRUTH? I know truth but not this monolithic TRUTH. Do you mean to say there is a rule book we ought to follow? How would I know if the thing you think is TRUTH really is? Where dose IT lead? And why must you attack viciously those who disagree with you?
My public silence frustrates you and yet allows you to invent me in your own image. I know this full well. The shock will be in the disillusion of this fantasy. Clearly to you there is only one way your own. This will not satisfy me.
You seem especially torqued by Christianity. Are you just as vehement against all belief systems that are not your own?
If you really do care about me and think I should be "saved" from Christians then how does attacking people who I choose to associate with help your cause. What if the one you attacked was my closest friend? Would that really dispose me kindly to you? No. Would I listen to you? Unlikely. Why? Because I trust him he loves me.
It's funny to me that you think you can follow Jesus Christ without being a Christian or dealing with his claim to divinity. Just work that one out logically TRUTH lover.
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Thursday, August 18, 2011
UftPM
Woha! wouldn't want that cruise again. We've had such grate weather for the last couple of weeks I was looking forward to another lovely calm/productive cruise. Alas, the Monster it back. For some "unaccountable" reason Viking was off his game. I have my theories, I always do, but they'd be pure fiction at this point.
Oh Mocking Bird how the pants have defeated you! He is so easily flustered but then none of them had the presence of mind to tell him to keep the pants he had on. That came toward the end and I think they had reached their limit. I say they because Six had a shadow tonight.
Vanity was a pain. She has been since she was put in charge of the choreography. I punched her in my soul. Why? because she has no decorum when she's giving notes. It's like "YOU'RE DOING THIS WRONG FIX IT" not "hey, let's figure this out" The really silly part is that she tells me notes that if she checked with the people who are actually concerned in it she would learn the they worked it out or that it was a non issue to begin with.
I wonder if I got enough sleep last night. I wonder what the future holds. Then I wonder why I care.
Oh Mocking Bird how the pants have defeated you! He is so easily flustered but then none of them had the presence of mind to tell him to keep the pants he had on. That came toward the end and I think they had reached their limit. I say they because Six had a shadow tonight.
Vanity was a pain. She has been since she was put in charge of the choreography. I punched her in my soul. Why? because she has no decorum when she's giving notes. It's like "YOU'RE DOING THIS WRONG FIX IT" not "hey, let's figure this out" The really silly part is that she tells me notes that if she checked with the people who are actually concerned in it she would learn the they worked it out or that it was a non issue to begin with.
I wonder if I got enough sleep last night. I wonder what the future holds. Then I wonder why I care.
Saturday, August 13, 2011
UftPM
No, really looking forward to the prospect of exchanging my happy shipmates for the moody energy sucking ones. It's exactly what I need. See I'm getting board. So either I need the above to come back or I need to start working as FaGuyver's assistant (awesome idea! Don't think we're ready for that quite yet. It would be so *intense*). I guess I could go to school and learn to cut hair everybody wants their hair cut at some point.
Please be a little more mature when you get back Jello. That goes for the other one too.
I fully expect my hopes to be dashed. Have I killed them too soon? Time will tell.
Please be a little more mature when you get back Jello. That goes for the other one too.
I fully expect my hopes to be dashed. Have I killed them too soon? Time will tell.
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Mind dump 080?11:
I was cleaning out piles of paper in my room and came across an assortment of material that I didn't want to lose but didn't want to keep the paper they were written on. So, I'm dumping them in this post. Therefore you may find it a little "out there" I really don't care.
miXtape: Year One.
set: 4.5 actor: 0.5
Once there was a show populated by '80's cliches that docked in San Diego. I know, I was Wardrobe and the show held together under my watch.
There were 5 stage managers and 6 SR ASMs but only one Wardrobe in that year.
Through many trials we passed to entertain the citizens of this seaside town and they to reward us drank and joined the show. There was love.
To every bright vision a shadow is attached. Many good men went down on this show (due to it's "radical" design). But I saw to it that they never went down naked!
Well miXtape may live a long life.*
We don't know how sound this show is but to mark it's annual seems fitting.
Happy birthday miXtape! The big parties don't start till you turn five.
Jello,
I could give you some advice that if you followed it would make people like you better. Of course, I see you can't hear it now. So, I'll keep it to myself and let you make your own mistakes. But if, for some strange reason, you decide to listen to me I'm here. I don't lie. I'm not afraid to tell you the truth.
how it should've gone:
jello:(for the fourth time)We just have him stay SR. Just have all his changes there.
starling:(for the third time)Just decide and tell me what you want.
jello: Just, put him SR.
starling: Whoa, did you hear what I said? I said, tell me what you want to do. Sheez, lighten up! Nothing's going to break no one will care tomorrow. I'll be down in a few minutes with paper. There's no way in hell you'll keep him SR the whole show! That's redonkulous.
Son of a Whore
"When you come up in a empty society you know one without codes or love really I think it's the love. Any way desperation throws people together, right? So yeah, I had a gang up in the hill country. We were desperadoes, don't think, it doesn't happen any more, 'cuz it does." J
___
Before you can do anything silly, like write a book, you must live something. I'm often unimpressed with a thing. Is that because I know too much? I'm thinking it's a focus thing. For a long time I focused on all the things I could fear. I've come to a point now where that is deadly.
___
Dimly I thought, at first the shining one would come all would bask in his glow. Planetary wandering is a bit redundant.
Curry Salad Dressing
1 TBspoon vinegar
3 TBspoons oil
1/2 teaspoon garlic salt
1 teaspoon mustard
juice from 1/2 lemon
3/4 teaspoon curry powder
1 TBspoon sugar
mix in jar, shake and use.
___
Full of filled cried silent tears
Empty woke the corpse
___
A Beginning
It was a small port village or settlement really. The fishermen were a rough lot all three of them. Perhaps this was the attraction for Peter. He had some dealings with the fishermen and kept those concerns going so that he frequently stayed among them. Everyone there knew his business wasn't "regular" but being small and out of the way they felt it best to turn a blind eye on it. Peter was in the "import export" business. Peter was not his actual name.
*Upper management wants the show to run "forever". I can only give it three years.
miXtape: Year One.
set: 4.5 actor: 0.5
Once there was a show populated by '80's cliches that docked in San Diego. I know, I was Wardrobe and the show held together under my watch.
There were 5 stage managers and 6 SR ASMs but only one Wardrobe in that year.
Through many trials we passed to entertain the citizens of this seaside town and they to reward us drank and joined the show. There was love.
To every bright vision a shadow is attached. Many good men went down on this show (due to it's "radical" design). But I saw to it that they never went down naked!
Well miXtape may live a long life.*
We don't know how sound this show is but to mark it's annual seems fitting.
Happy birthday miXtape! The big parties don't start till you turn five.
Jello,
I could give you some advice that if you followed it would make people like you better. Of course, I see you can't hear it now. So, I'll keep it to myself and let you make your own mistakes. But if, for some strange reason, you decide to listen to me I'm here. I don't lie. I'm not afraid to tell you the truth.
how it should've gone:
jello:(for the fourth time)We just have him stay SR. Just have all his changes there.
starling:(for the third time)Just decide and tell me what you want.
jello: Just, put him SR.
starling: Whoa, did you hear what I said? I said, tell me what you want to do. Sheez, lighten up! Nothing's going to break no one will care tomorrow. I'll be down in a few minutes with paper. There's no way in hell you'll keep him SR the whole show! That's redonkulous.
Son of a Whore
"When you come up in a empty society you know one without codes or love really I think it's the love. Any way desperation throws people together, right? So yeah, I had a gang up in the hill country. We were desperadoes, don't think, it doesn't happen any more, 'cuz it does." J
___
Before you can do anything silly, like write a book, you must live something. I'm often unimpressed with a thing. Is that because I know too much? I'm thinking it's a focus thing. For a long time I focused on all the things I could fear. I've come to a point now where that is deadly.
___
Dimly I thought, at first the shining one would come all would bask in his glow. Planetary wandering is a bit redundant.
Curry Salad Dressing
1 TBspoon vinegar
3 TBspoons oil
1/2 teaspoon garlic salt
1 teaspoon mustard
juice from 1/2 lemon
3/4 teaspoon curry powder
1 TBspoon sugar
mix in jar, shake and use.
___
Full of filled cried silent tears
Empty woke the corpse
___
A Beginning
It was a small port village or settlement really. The fishermen were a rough lot all three of them. Perhaps this was the attraction for Peter. He had some dealings with the fishermen and kept those concerns going so that he frequently stayed among them. Everyone there knew his business wasn't "regular" but being small and out of the way they felt it best to turn a blind eye on it. Peter was in the "import export" business. Peter was not his actual name.
*Upper management wants the show to run "forever". I can only give it three years.
Dream 012409
The Elder was making the elder's comments when a computer glitch happened that he couldn't ignored. The Preacher was not in the building for some reason. But was remotely working on the computer. I had a laptop and was sitting on the stage (I don't know why). I got the laptop to do something as the projector but didn't know why it happened or what to do about it. It was showing code.
The screens got to the point where they were showing the same number. The Elder thought it was the number for attendance. But it was seven thousand something and the room only holds about five hundred so that didn't make sense.
I was trying to figure out what to do next. I suddenly looked up and there the Elder was standing on the edge of the baptistry screaming for some woman about mildew behind the projector screen, he was totally panicked and irrational. He wanted it fixed right then.
It seemed that he thought the mildew caused the computer problem. I looked at the audience, they were getting restless. There was a girl I knew in Abilene on the first row. I could tell by her face that she didn't care about the mildew she had personal business. I stood up and was opening my mouth to get someone's attention when I woke up. Even though I was out of the dream I still delivered my speech to no one in particular:
"Hey! The computer glitch and the mildew are unrelated. They are distractions. Humans have functioned thousands of years, millions even, without computers. If the building really is unsafe we have a perfectly good parking lot to meet in. We shouldn't focus on distractions they're none of our business. God's work is. We should be calm people unaffected by panic."
I think I know what this means.
The screens got to the point where they were showing the same number. The Elder thought it was the number for attendance. But it was seven thousand something and the room only holds about five hundred so that didn't make sense.
I was trying to figure out what to do next. I suddenly looked up and there the Elder was standing on the edge of the baptistry screaming for some woman about mildew behind the projector screen, he was totally panicked and irrational. He wanted it fixed right then.
It seemed that he thought the mildew caused the computer problem. I looked at the audience, they were getting restless. There was a girl I knew in Abilene on the first row. I could tell by her face that she didn't care about the mildew she had personal business. I stood up and was opening my mouth to get someone's attention when I woke up. Even though I was out of the dream I still delivered my speech to no one in particular:
"Hey! The computer glitch and the mildew are unrelated. They are distractions. Humans have functioned thousands of years, millions even, without computers. If the building really is unsafe we have a perfectly good parking lot to meet in. We shouldn't focus on distractions they're none of our business. God's work is. We should be calm people unaffected by panic."
I think I know what this means.
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